hopes, always perseveres.”
After ten days in the hospital with my husband, I have an understanding of this verse that is very personal. I feel like after experiencing how I responded because of my love for my husband, I have another perspective on how God loves me.
I couldn’t protect Todd from the consequences of his sickness, but I could stand up for him in the hospital. When he was put in a double room with a man that couldn’t hear the TV unless it was pegged to number 10, it was time for me to protect him by speaking up. It took until morning, but he was moved.
I wanted to protect Todd completely, but that is God’s job. It was because of God’s love for us that we could have peace amidst this terrible trial. Whatever the results were with Todd, we knew God’s protection was over us.
When it comes to trusting I never doubted Todd’s being the man I
could believe in. Although his body was weak, I trusted his commitment to me. Because I trusted him, I wanted to be trustworthy too. There was no other place I wanted to be but with him. We spent ten days together in a small room and I am so glad I was there.
God wants me to trust Him in such a way that I never doubt His wanting the best for me. No matter what circumstances may look like, He is trustworthy. Because of His great love for me, I want to live a life that trustworthy. Just as Todd didn’t demand that I stay with Him, God doesn’t demand I give Him my full attention. Yet, Todd is also extremely grateful for my staying with him and so with God, He can better reveal Himself as I focus my trust in Him.
Always hopes. Of course throughout our stay I hoped Todd would
come home healthy. My hope looks to the future and wants many more years with him. It is this hope that kept us fighting. If we had no hope we would have given up and let his heart take his life.
Our future hope of heaven is so much grander and bigger than this life, that I can hardly compare holding on to Todd to hoping for heaven. Yet, as a Christian, this hope of heaven should give meaning to every day. Who knows how long this life will last, it is this eternal hope that shines light on each day.
Love always perseveres, it finishes what it starts. This journey to fix Todd’s heart is far from over. We are home, that is wonderful. He is home on meds and with a life vest. For the next three months we will be frequenting many doctors. We will persevere, together, because love always perseveres.
God is walking with us, He is our strength. He will never leave or forsake us, He will persevere too. Sometimes I think God gets frustrated with having to help me. Yet, through Todd’s sickness I have not been frustrated at all; I want to help Todd because I love him. God loves me even more and He knows I am weak, so He perseveres without throwing His hands up in frustration, He is glad to walk with me, to catch me if I fall.
That reminds me, in the hospital someone always had to be with
Todd in case he would get dizzy and fall. They assigned a 5’4”, 100 pound girl to be with him. Todd is 6’4”, 250 pounds, who were they kidding?
Thanks to all of you that reached out to us, we appreciate every prayer that was prayed on our behalf.
Glad to be home.